10 days left for the Prelims to start, and I am having panic-attacks and the absolute urge to throw away my books, in cycles. It is hard to keep so many things inside a small head, as many mnemonics that one may want to come up with. To top this, I have, once again, fallen prey to my delicate health, which seems to wait and wait and wait for that right moment (two weeks before the exam) and then collapses like a sand castle against the ocean waves. I was fine through out the past two months; Hell, I’ve never been better health-wise. People around me fell ill, every day…..every day a new virus made its existence clear around me. But, exams are the food that these organisms need when I’m concerned.
I might be able to complete my portion, but, there’s no way I can even tell myself that I’m ready for the Prelims. It’s so simple. I can start months before, or days before. I still won’t be able to believe that I know everything!! I’m just hoping I can get past this barrier ok. Then there is a two month preparation leave, when I hope I can do things more systematically and less hurriedly…..
It’s my birthday on the 14th!! Of course, I’m studying throughout the day, and there are not going to be any surprises like last year. But, it’s my birthday!! And I have reason to rejoice for those 24 hours!!!!
Best of luck to me for the horror that awaits. 20th September, here we come!!!!!!
