Thank God!

Its over!!!!.....I found the admit card...Strangely enough, it never left the car after we took it to get my scorecard. I had put it in the compartment near the front seat, and when I closed it, the card slipped into a gap behind the compartment. So the next time when I opened it and looked around, I didn't see it all and thought that I had taken it. My mom checked the car thrice, but nobody thought of looking behind the compartment.
Yesterday, when we were driving to a get-together, mom just asked me to look around and I noticed the gap. Thank goodness, I'm as thin as I am, 'coz its only because of that, that my hand went in and then came out safely with the card. Seriously, its a relief. Imagine saying, my admission went because I didn't have my admit card.....!
The atmosphere's back to what it was before and I had the most amazing sleep last night after a day of eating way too much!!!
Looking forward to my counselling, after the nerve-wracking cleaning of the house for the last two days. At least it will bring a moment of relief!! And I still have my options!!!!!

I feel like an angel again:-)

Major Soup Now...

The admit card refuses to be found and things at home are tense. Slightly better today. Yesterday, God! I can't imagine a worse friday than the one that just passed. I really wish, we find that card.
I went through the brochure today, n there was a line stating that if the admit card was lost, you have contact the Centre Incharge of the District. We suddenly saw a glimmer of hope, which was dashed to ground and way underneath it, when the Admissions' Officer said that that rule applied to an admit card lost before the exam. I seem to be a unique case, really.
I think she recognised us, coz my parents and I have pestered her before, when I needed a second form to fill. My parents appealed to her Head and that really angered her then. Now the Head can play no role, so she's having a great time. I just hate her really......
Mom says that we'll find it. After two months or so, coz thats what happens in our house. She's angry with Dad, coz he was the person who kept on saying that I wouldn't get the admission, n now it is what things look like. I don't believe in all this crap, but it reminds me of something else.....
About three weeks ago we went to rajasthani restuarant, where there was a palm-reader. Since I was confused about what I wanted to do at that time, we asked him about it and he said that I was going to do engineering and then an MBA. I'd remarked at that time that there was no connection between me and the medical field at all. And then, I got a rank that gave me a medical seat! but I got enough to do engineering and had to choose. You know all the time I was undecided, the card was there. And now when I decided that I'd do medical, BANG! its gone.....
I believe in Karma, Fate, Destiny, the play of Numbers, that Life has already been decided for you, n if I like it, what fortune-tellers and palm-readers have to say. So this seems like, when I tried to go away from what had been decided for me, there had to be a Heavenly Interruption to change my path. So, you can't defeat God. I tried to change what I had been told, n well, here's the result! I'm still hoping that we find it or that the attested xeroxes( luckily, mom remembered that my class had one xerox, which they'd taken before the CET. How much I owe you guys!!!) do the job for us at the counselling. Till then its fingers crossed....I'm praying, really. 'Coz the blame of losing it all has been put on me, and I can't take the blame......I don't think I've done anything.........But still, things are better today than they were yesterday, in terms of mood, so have to take the burden of the blame..........Fingers Crossed......Please lemme find it....

Oh Crap!

Amazing!!! The one thing that was always with me in the past one month is now gone! Mom n Dad can't find my admit card and I'm dead nervous. Strange enough, I remember about it being somewhere in the many files I use, but as usual, my memory refuses to help me out here. I'm so scared that if I don't find it, I'm gonna be in such a mess really. Just praying that Mom finds it.
And the plan to see the colleges has been cancelled. My counselling is on the 4th n we don't wanna do things in a hurry, so just hope for the best and I want a good place to live in.....

The Start: Doctor or Engineer

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As I sat deciding to write in my blog, I had this wonderful idea of writing about my experiences now, in my quest to move forth in life, towards, as the title suggests, Success. My exam results are out and by my amazing luck, I am eligible for both courses in Medicine and Engineering. My mom was on top of the world with the news, but I was not, after about two days. Now I had to decide where I wanted to go, something that I'm terrible at doing. My parents gave me a month to decide what I wanted, but I seem to have made my decision quite quickly, and I feel good about it. Feeling good for me simply means that it the right thing to do. So this is going to be my journey through the procedure of taking admission into the field of medicine and hoping that I reach the level of achievement that I want to reach.
Currently, we are thinking of taking a trip to the medical colleges I might most likely have to choose from. To see the place and then decide whether I want to spend the next 4 yrs there. After all, I don't want to be secluded in an oh-so-ancient place. I'm glad my mom thinks that studying is not the only thing I'm gonna do now on. She's suddenly thinking about the same things that I am.....or maybe I've suddenly grown up!